The big decision!

So what made me get the gastric sleeve? Well let me be honest, I have never been skinny & was never really worried about my weight until 2009. You see in 2009 I was happy & in love with life & my daughter's father. Then here comes March 4th the second worst day of my life. I received a call that my mother was pretty much dead & I need to hurry back to Texas to tell her goodbye, 24 hours after I arrived she passed away with me holding her hand. It still feels like yesterday. So of course I was eating everything in site duh! I'm BEYOND depressed! SHE was my best friend :(

 Then to make matters crazier... 3 months later I found out I was pregnant & my due date..... March 5th the day my mother died. Even better my daughter's father wants nothing to do with my pregnancy or my beautiful daughter :( Did I mention that I was fired from my job too? Valium please prozac something!!

So yeah with all of that .... (recap) dead mom, pregnant & dumped & umemployed all within 3 months!! You can only imagine how the weight added on. Funny thing I gained all my "additional" weight AFTER I gave birth. Depression is a muthafucker. Next thing I know it's 2012 I'm alone in this world with my now 2 year old & I am a whopping 312 yes 312 pounds.

So one day I was talking to a co-worker was telling me that she was having a gastric bypass & another one was having a gastric sleeve & our work insurance pays for it @ 100% no deductable or out of pocket. What!!! Awesome but I'm still scared but seeing those 2 losing 90+ pounds in 7 months sealed the deal!! I'm going to do it!!